When he touched me, I felt quite repulsed. I thought maybe it was to do with the fact that he'd been with another woman and betrayed me.
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I still have sex with him from time to time, but only because I feel I have to, to keep our marriage alive.
I know I'm not fooling him; he has said to me that he feels that my love for him has changed and he blames himself for that.
I don't know whether our marriage will survive but I'm willing to give it my all for now. I know Lukas is very remorseful for his actions. I just hope for the sake of our daughter we can make this work.